& iF u WiLL kEeP mE fRoM wAkiNg 2 BeLiEvE tHiS ..

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 09:37:52 PDT

ugh we left this morning .. 4 am .. this really sucks?? and my moms a bitch so we can count on her to make everything better. i miss everybody already and i cant wait to see all of yall again:( i love all of u so much and u have no idea wat every single person in georgia has done for me .. youve made me such a better person and i would and could never be where i am w/out yall ..

sohAinhUrr: r u irish
sohAinhUrr: can i kiss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^ haha wow soha .. my big sis !! im gonna miss u so much !!

welll .. im in a hotel in nc right now ..in cary?? i love the hotel but i OfFiCiAllY hate north carolina b/c i gotta live here and b/c well it sucks !! spring break was awesome though .. kristin deanna aMy garrett schuetz erik clare sam javier soha kyle & everybody else i got to see .. im soo glad i got to see u !! and ima miss all of u so much !!

6 FLAGS:
was soo amazing and so fun and im so glad that i got to see yall [amy kristin deanna erik david & garrett] for it !! haha the hick guys, acraphobia or w/e, FUNNEL CAKE, tattoos, julian, uhh that country that escaped to 6 flags .. hah everything !! i love yall soooo much !!

woo then i went to the movies w/ clare javier sam kyle & garrett .. thhat was fun !! im gonna miss u guys soo much !! i love u !!

where are u and im so sorry i cannot sleep i cannot dream tonight i need somebody and always this sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting every time ..

so if i had a dime for every time you walked away, you could bet your bottom dollar id be filthy rich by noon todayy..

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 15:50:06 PDT

wow.. wat a day.. i love listenning to my parents fight?? & now i might be moving today.. but heyy @ least we might be going to ohio til monday? i doubt it though.. annd then theres more.. somebody pissed me off today!! i love how friends ask you to do something, and then you do it.. and they dont even care.. thx loser. but anyway. im just seriously like sick of today and sick of my family. im around them too much.. once a week? but w/e. you would be like ehhh F off if you had to be here too. and the thing that sucks is that BEFORE i did wat my friend asked me to.. i had plans! another friend invited me over too but gO fIGURE--> my mom doesnt let me. my little brother wont stop his damn crying.. my house is packed up to a couple boxes? [literally] just screw today. i hate my freaking family!!

every time we lie awake
     after every hit we take
                       every feeling that i get
               but i havent missed you yet
   every roomate kept awake
                 by every sigh and scream we make
                        all the feelings that i get
        but i still dont miss you yet
           only wen i stop to think about it
   i hate everything about you
        why do i love you?
              every time we lie awake
                              after every hit we take
                                                every feeling that i get
                                    but i havent missed you yet
              only when i stop to think about it..
                 i hate everything about you
            why do i love you?
only when i stop to think
      about you, i know
                 only when you stop to think
     about me, do you know
             i hate everything about you
       why do i love you?
you hate everything about me.. why do you love me?

fallingstarss..

& iF u WiLL kEeP mE fRoM wAkiNg 2 BeLiEvE tHiS ..

so if i had a dime for every time you walked away, you could bet your bottom dollar id be filthy rich by noon todayy..